Nothing comes to my mind now. So, no idea what should I write here. Basically, I'm not able to concentrate because I heard Dave crying all the time. For those of you who don't know who is Dave, he is my co
usin's son. He is suffering from cough rite now. Maybe because he feel unwell, now he asks people to carry him all the time. That is his picture. ^^
Today, I hope I can start study. At least, finishing half of the material. The exam is the day after tomorrow and I haven't read any. OMG!
I'm quite disappointed with my last two results, I feel that I didn't study hard enough.
I think that I'm a perfectionist. It's tiring to live my life in that way. I have tried to change it slowly, but still I get upset easily over whatever thing that I think is not perfect enough. There was a time, one of my lecturers said that,
"There is no perfection in this world because the word perfect itself is not perfect."
Just for information, that lecturer of mine loves philosophy. Just like my English course teacher. Thus, it does not matter if you don't understand it. Because, I can't either. He he..
However, if there is no perfection in this life, what actually people pursue in their life?
I like the way I struggle to get a thing I want. For example, I study to get good results in the exam. Like a hunter, I like the feeling of winning, the satisfaction of what I attain. A man, I used to like, said that I am an ambitious person. I replied him that if I can get 100, why I will be satisfied over 90? I guess it's the reason why he and I are never meant together. :)
However, there are times that I feel tired of the way I live my life. Actually, I'm not as ambitious as what he thought. But, I'm trapped in the circle of perfection. When I always get good result, people start to expect good result from me. Then I will try to satisfy their expectation. It's like a circle I cannot get out from.
